love doesn't come to me..!

Love doesn't come to me.. How can I make myself love a person. He deserves it all.. He deserves much much more that he is getting.

I just make him feel guilty.. I dont love him back.. I just dont. I try.. I try many a times.. I try hard sometimes.. It works for a little while, sometimes.. But it goes away very quickly. I do try and setup my mind to love him.. I sometimes succeed but it is more of my mind than my heart. I dont catch myself really missing him very often.. I dont often catch myself thinking about him unless I am thinking about why I am not loving him and/or why did I fight with him, yet again, on such a small thing.. I find myself feeling guilty most of the times..